Then I started praying and asking God for a healing in my life, and emotional healing of anything that could be hindering me now as I try to serve God. I thought surely it couldn't be a spirit of anger, but then God showed me that I in fact did have a spirit of anger. As a child, my mother remarried and I had a step father. I did not even have a photograph of my real father and this angered me. I did not like being disciplined by someone who I thought was not my father and I did not like it that my father was replaced. This made me feel that I had no control in my life and was hinged on the spirit of anger.

 

After all those years, even now in my life when someone like my husband would try to correct me about something, I would have this inner turmoil and strike back with angry words. I would feel upset that I didn't have control and someone was trying to correct me who didn't have the right to. God finally showed me, when I was ready to accept it, that I had a spirit of anger going back to my childhood that followed me.

 

It made me feel inadequate to do things like singing in church. I felt that I didn't have control and this gave me such inner turmoil that I had asked the Lord to remove it so that I could praise Him the way I needed to.

 

Now, praise God that He has shined His light of truth on the darkness within me from my childhood.  I asked the Lord to remove the anger from me and to put up a shield of protection because I know that it will try to come back on me. Now that I have the knowledge of it, it will be much harder for the spirit of anger to take root and control me any longer.

 

When God reveals truths to us it provides healing to wounded parts of our soul that we may not have even known about. God is so GOOD!